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Thomasian Journey Year 2.5

Eng 4 1.5
Math 103 2.0
Math 109 2.5
Cs 102 2.25
Ics7 2.25
Assembly lec 1.75
Assembly lab 2.75
Accounting II 1.25
This shows my grade for 2nd year, 2nd semester SY: 2012-2013.

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How can I sum up this sem for me? Hmm, this sem was a roller coaster, it was a wheel..but like any roller coaster ride, it will end.

Uhm. Ang hirap simulan. Di ko alam kung saan magsisimula. Kung paano magsisimula. Anong mga salita ang aking gagamitin, in short I have no idea about this.

This semester was hard for me, believe me. When I say it was hard, it was really hard. But I knew that I can aced it, but I was too confident with myself, so when I found out that I was not a part of a Dean’s List, it felt like the gravity had pulled me down as fast as it can be. 

Ang hirap ng mga subjects para sa semestrong ito, kahit na kakaonti lamang, oo mahirap pa rin. Lalo na ng nabawasan ng mga minor subjects at marami-rami ang mga subjects na kung saan ako mahina. Oral Communication, Accounting II, Files Organization, Web Design and Interface, Integral Calculus, Probability and Statistics, Assembly Lecture, Assembly Lab ang mga subjects ko for this sem, kung mapapansin niyo, mahirap talaga. Mahina ako sa math, mahina din ako mag programming.

Mental Models. Iterative Design. 

Ang mental models ay isang konsepto na natutunan ko sa ICS 7 aka as Web Design and Interface (biruin mo may natutunan pala ako dun, lol.meron naman, marami naman). Ang mga Mental Models ay ang mga imaheng nabubuo sa utak (malamang, san pa ba? ) natin kung sa atin maaring maging hadlang sa atin upang makamit ang goal natin. In other words, it is a barrier that should be torn down. A blockage that should be eliminated. On the other hand, Iterative Design is the best way to produce a well product. Thru iteration, we can get almost perfect outcomes. Perfect in terms of usability, functionality and durability.

Constant of Integration.

Ito naman ang hindi dapat kalimutan sa pagsagot ng integral calculus (pwera na lang kung Definite Integral). Sa pag-integrate ng mga equations, we should not forget to affix the Constant C at the end of every equation. C is important in Integral Calculus. It should be constant.

Credit and Debit must be balanced. There should be reconciliation.

Isa itong konsepto sa accounting. Kailangan balance ang debit at credit, kasi kapag hindi maaring may kulang at maaring makaapekto ito. O kaya kapag hindi balance, kailangan malaman kung san hindi nagbalanse, kailangan pantay ang record kapag kinounter check ng bank at ng kompanya, pag di balance, kailangan mag prepare ng reconciliation ang kompanya, para klaro ang lahat.

Rapport. Clear and concise.

These are just some things that we should consider every time we deliver something, it could a speech, a debate, a job interview, etc. Rapport is important in each and every one of us. We can get the audience’s   respect if they know that we respect our selves too and even them. And they can understand us if we ourselves knows what is going on around us.

Complicated Language can be Simplified by Understanding them.

Isa itong paraan para maintnidihan ng lubusan ang assembly. Ang Assembly ay isang programming language, it is a low-level language, meaning, napaka technical ng mga terms, parang isang robot. '

Hal. MOV AH,2 INT 21H. 

Different Ways to Organize Files-Different Algorithms; same goal.

Ito naman ay para sa CS 102. Dito, natutunan ko na marami palang algorithm (solutions to problem) para i-sort ang mga files. Para ayusin ang mga magugulong files. Maraming paraan para maayos ang mga bagay na mistulang magulo. Basta alamin natin kung ano ang problema, makagagawa tayo ng mga solutions.

Study of chances is Probability. Every word is Important. 

Isa ito sa mga field sa Statistics. Our chances of getting what we want can be computed here, but we should always think that numbers are uncertain too. Thus, we should look for signs, in terms of statistics, we should look at the data given, the words used, because sometimes the answers are just in front of our eyes, ‘ika nga ng mga matatanda, “Nasa harapan mo na ang ahas, tutuklawin ka na lang.”

Ilan lang yan sa mga konseptong natutunan ko. At bawat talata, bawat konsepto na nabasa niyo, o maaring nalalaman niyo rin, ay maaring magamit sa reyalidad ng buhay. Ang konseptong ito ay di lamang sa apat na sulok ng silid aralan matututunan, di lang sa unibersidad o paaralan kung san ka naka-enroll, kundi maging sa tunay na buhay. 

Kaya ko ito naisulat sapagkat ako mismo, makaranas ng mga bagay na ito. 

Oo, sa maikling panahon, sa loob ng 5 buwan,marami akong natutunan, mukhang marami pero, iilan pa ito sa mga dapat kong malaman, dapat matutunan

Ang pag-iisip ko na mahina ako sa math, o sa programming ay lubos na nakaapekto sa akin. Masyado akong kinain ng mentalidad ito. Bukod dito, ang pag-iisip ko na kaya ko ang lahat that I don’t need 911 (in short help) really knocked me down. I was wrong. I wasn’t that strong. I was a great pretender. Relying in our own strength makes us weak. Quite ironic, right? But it is true. If keep on relying to ourselves, if we reach the point that we keep on believing that we are strong enough, that we don’t need help, the more we look weak, the more we become pathetic. No man in an island.  Masyado akong naging kampante, nakalimutan ko na without GOD I am nothing. Naging inactive ako sa Youth for Christ, dinahilan ko pang ang  duty ko. Nalihis ako ng landas.

Hindi ko rin nagawang balansehin ang ibang bagay sa buhay ko. Lalo na nang naguluhan ako sa nararandaman ko at nang  nagkandagulo gulo na sa tinitirahan ko. Madali kasi akong magkagusto. OO aaminin ko, nagkagusto ako kay Classmate. Uhm, pero crush lang naman. Pero mas gusto ko si  Mr. HighSchool, Ewan ko ba, super crush ko siya, since high school pa. Kaya ang hirap I let go. Alam ko dapat di ko muna isipin to, kaso it keeps on knocking. Oo hanggang ngayon, ang hirap pigilan, ang hirap magbingibingihan. Kaya ito, nang sumegway ang inlove thingy nato, nagkanda leche leche na. Pero hindi kami ah, wala akong BOYFRIEND. Wala po talaga. Ako lang tong inlababo sa kanya. 

Tapos bukod sa usapang puso, yung ibang external force naman. Magulo sa tinirhan ko. OO, magulo talaga. Inuman dito, away doon. Sigawan dito, iyak dito. Oo nagpapasalamat ako na may tinirhan ako na libre ang lahat at malapit sa school ko, pero sobra na kasi ang gulo. Pero sabi nga ni Father, bago ko problemahin to, eh problemahin ko muna yung sarili kong problema. I don’t want to elaborate this issue anymore because it is really complicated. Hope you understand, guys .

Tulad nga ng nabanggit sa mga unang talata, naging over-confident ako sa sarili ko. Mukha naging lakas to kaso, sumobra, ayon, differentiate tuloy yung confidence ko. Naging muddy yung isip, para bang walang pumapasok sa isip ko kahit anong pilit kong aralin yung isang bagay. Para bang paglipat ng isang slide, sabay ding lilipad yung mga natutunan ko, kaya ayan tuloy, puro pasang awa o mababa pa sa pasang awa yung mga scores ko. Do I look like a grade conscious? The answer is yes, yes I am grade conscious in my own way. Haha!

On the academe side, our subjects were very much technical, kaya it was a bit hard, but if you are going to simplify it, kering keri pala! I was so overwhelmed with the words, processes and codes that I had encountered in my previous courses. 
Super techie kasi and parang robot kung babasahin. Pero, simple lang pala, nahirapan ako sa logical side.  In line with this, yung isa pang subject na nahirapan ako-CS102. Mabait naman ang professor naming kaso, yung exams niya ay pamatay, hindi naman kahirapan pero alam yung sa eleap siya magpapatest, no backtracking, case sensitive pa, nadali ako dun, and grabe, mauubusan ka ng English sa kanya, sobrang strict sa grammar. pero okay na iyon, at least may natutunan naman ako sa kanya, sadyang imba lang talaga siya magpa-exam.

Summa total, my probability being on the list was very low, we can infer that based on what I have said earlier. 

Oo, masakit pero ang importante ay may natutunan ako sa mahigit kumulang na limang buwan. Ang importante ay namaintain ko pa rin  ang scholarship ko. Kung baga bonus point na tong pagiging Dean’s Lister. 

OO maasakit kasi palaging nasa taas ang gulong ng buhay ko sa larangan ng edukasyon, hindi ako sanay ng lumalagapak, nagpapasalamat na rin ako dahil naranasan ko to dahil di lang mga aral na natutunan sa paaralan kundi maging sa tunay na buhay. OO masakit bumagsak, pero hindi ba magandang isipin na masayang bumangon ulit sapagkat nalaman mo na ang mga pagkakamaling maaaring maulit muli, at least kahit papaano, maiiwasan ang mga ito. Ang importante, marunong tayong bumangon mula sa pagkakadapa. Tulad ng isang batang naglalaro na biglang nadapa, hindi niya alintana ang sakit, ang mga sugat o galos na maari niyang makuha, dahil ang nasa isip niya niya ay makapaglaro, mahabol ang dapat habulin at  maging masaya, kaya taas noo siyang tatayo at nakangiti, ni walang bahid ng sakit o luha. For sure, alam niyo rin ito dahil lahat naman tayo nagdaan sa gantong edad. Lahat tayo nakaranas ng ganitong pangyayari sa ating buhay. 

Yun lamang ang aking maibabahagi sa ngayon, I hope that you’ve learn something from this blog. I know that it is pretty long but it is worth reading. God bless.
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-Melrose

Debutante's Wish(es) :05-21-95

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

-While I'm Waiting by John  Waller

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Hello there!

I've been living in this world for almost 18 years (thank God for trusting me this life), and I guess, 18 fruitful years for a girl like me is really worth living for. So, I just want to share my birthday wishes, though I know that there is a cliche that wishes should be kept as a secret, but why not defy it for a while. *winks*

When I was a kid, I was dreaming of having a fairy tale like party, wherein there are 18 roses, 18 princes, 18 candles, 18 treasures, 18 books, 18 dresses, 18 shoes/sandals, and the like. Me wearing beautiful gowns that were carefully sewed by my mom, designed by Jill (one of my bestfriends), and there were bunch of roses and tulips, having a motif of red and white. And my mom and my dad were the queen and king respectively. But as I grow up, I realized that it is impossible for me to have that considering my current situation, so, I had a revision of my wishes.

• Swimming Party o Buffet with the people I treasured the most. 
• Kahit saan basta buffet, pero trip ko yung:
• Yakimix
• Kamayan
• Buffet 101
• Kung sa swimming party naman:
• Beach-somewhere in Batangas
• Hot Spring-somewhere in Laguna
• Go to Church
• Guitar with Built-In Tuner
• High Quality Headphone/Earphone
• Fast-speed Internet \m/
• 1 or 3 Terabyte Hard Disk/Drive
• Books written by:
• Mitch Albom
• Nicholas Sparks
• Paulo Coelho
• Bro. Bo Sanchez
• Bob Ong
• Filipino Authors
• Sets of Clothes
• Dresses
• Tops (muscle tee, tank tops, T-shirts, name it)
• Jeans
• Shorts
• Skirts
• Sets of Shoes and Sandals whether flat or with heels :)
• Charcoal Pencil, Sketch Pad
• To visit my lola and lolo in Antique and Cotabato
• pampering myself with spa, hair make over. :)

The lists above are just my ideal wishlist. Though in reality, I know that some of these things are hard to be come true, maybe someday it will come, no matter how old I am. Aside from those physical things, I wish things would go well as time pass by. Naway, magpatuloy ang scholarship ko until I graduate-kahit working scholar ako, masaya ako doon..Naway mabalik ako sa Dean's List, at kung ipapahintulot ni Lord, maging isa ako sa mga may-Laude. I hope that upon knowing that I'm already 18, I hope that I could embrace my responsibilities with full will. That I could face my fear, to serve God in every way that I can. Being 18 is not just an age, but it is a symbolism that there is still a bigger world outside my comfort zone. That there are bigger opportunities waiting outside.

But what matter is that I will spend this special day of life with my Creator, with the people I love, who love and embrace me for who I am-not on what I could give to them or what can I do, and of course, to thank God for everything, for all the blessings that I've received from Him. Living for 18 years is something that shouldn't be taken for granted . It doesn't matter if we did crazy things in the past, what important is that we learned from it and we had fun. We should be thankful for the years that God had trusted to us.

ooh. I didn't notice the time. it is already 12-ish in the morning here in the Philippines. Got to go. God bless, everyone.

That's all! 

PS: I wonder, what is your birthday wish? :)

-Melrose