Lost

I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Oh and I'm just waiting 'till the shine wears off
-Lost by Cold Play


I am lost in my own map.

For these past few days, madalas kong nakikita ang sarili kong tulala, mukhang malalim ang iniisip pero wala naman. Madalas akong makalimot ng mga bagay na dapat kong tandaan. Madalas akong naligaw kung sa'n man.

For these past few days, mabilis ako makaramdam ng dismaya, ng lungkot. Actually, ngayon nalulungkot ako...di ko rin kasi alam kung ano na yung nangyayari sa buhay ko. Para bang sunod na lang sa agos ng buhay yung pinag-gagawa ko. I kept on turning left, on looking for some possible detours, until I realized that I was lost in my own track. It was like a maze wherein I got stuck in the dead end.

I want to go back. I need to know where I stumble. I have to trace the root of this insanity. I have to reconstruct the map, the script of my life. Of course, I cannot do it on my own, I need help.

Oh God, please help me. Let Your will be done.

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